My wilderness experience

I once thought that I was doing fine.

I thought that everything that I did is jz out from the sincere heart and yet I didn’t realised that I’m sincerely wrong.

Until the accident caught my attention…

I started to ask many questions, checking my life here and there…

But things did not get better but worse…

Many things come in here and there, from every directions…

And out from all the things that I can do is jz to struggle…

Struggle, struggle and continue to struggle…

God seem to be never in the picture…

And I started to pity myself, thinking that no one is there for me…

Not even God!!!

The never give up spirit is always in my blood..

Even though I hear no his voice, I still continue to shout, cry and ask…

Never realised that the problem was not in Him but I…

Til loneliness and weariness filled every room that I had…

I gave up…

Jz like how Jacob struggle with the angel of God and lost it in the early morning…

I gave up…

No matter how many reasons I gave him, I know I stand on shakey legs.

I’ll never get to win…

I gave up and chose to give in…

Throw every towels that I have to the pail…

Thinking of turning away, and yet that was actually when I started to taste the dew that He brought in…

Never will I realised it was jz as simple as that…

Walking out from the wilderness jz as simple as that…

Jz by giving all up to Him…

And healing started to flow… And it overwhelmed and overpowered me…

And the green pastures took over the wilderness…

I’ve never come this near to Him…

An open heaven just above my head…

Never this close…

And I realised wilderness is never meant for us to turn bitter but BETTER…

And our attitude is always the key to determine what we have at the end…

The time I had in wilderness is indeed painful…

It was filled with tears and cry…

But the things that I experience now is really awesome…

Don’t give up, pals…

God knows it and He sees it…

Keep crying out to Him and he would turn your tears to songs of joy…

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship