Had been in JB for almost 2.5 month…

Din really get to update this blog much after I came here. No specific reason…

But had been through much things and learnt much things throughout the last 6 months.

Thinking of stop blogging here… especially these few days. Thinking of starting something afresh… Letting and leaving all this records as a sweet memories while blogging under a new theme…

Hmm.. Was busy with work this week. Can’t talk much here. Maybe would post a closing note soon. See how things go…

Thanks for your visit to this blog and supporting me all this while..

Love u,

Joyce Tan

I miss…

Pak Ngah’s sup sayur…

^_^

I don’t really sure on how this world had deviates from its originality or how pure and perfect it was at the very begining, but I’m quite furious yet helpless at the stage where we are today. And the whole thing had somehow sadden me as I don’t think this is what we are suppose to be in… Am I too idealistic?

As I get older each day and my life being enriched (yes, I really mean this, ENRICH, haha~~~, I’m an optimist.) by different experiences, sometime added by the sharing of others’ experiences, I realise there is indeed a lot of people out there trying to defend themselves…

Some did so, so that they will not be underestimated…

Some did so, so that they would get what they want…

Some did so, so that they will get to protect themselves and their loved ones…

Some did so because they are sick of some parts of life…

Some did so, so that they can keep some things covered…

Some did so, so that they won’t be hurt…

Life is not suppose to be moving forward while our eyes are fixing at our past. That would never be an ideal one even though we are taught to learn from the past… That’s why history is taught in the school. Yeah, after all, it is to learn from the past, not entangled by the past!!! Btw, history is always the subject I scored lowest among the other subjects. HAhahaha… The unseen should be the one determining the seen and not the other way round. Who we are is determined by who we going to be and not who we were… Dropping, changing and stepping out from comfort zone is not a bad idea many times.

Well, I really think that the more we would like to keep, the more we are going to lose… We might not lose the material thing, yet we would lose something which is more precious than those. Is this worthwhile?

It’s just like we are trying so hard to find something, yet we would never get it. But the moment we give up or letting nature to take its course, things just happens! Hehe… You have this kind of experience, too? Or when we have finally get what we want after much attempt, then only we realize it is really not a big deal. The satisfaction is not there…

Oh man oh man… when can we get out from this cycle?

Let’s let go of the past and allow our potential to be release…

HAhahhaaa….

Hmmhmm…

I was in the midst of packing and farewell this week as I would be relocate to Johor for my lab attachment. Lab attachment would start by next Monday.Packing is such an energy consuming task…

Not too sure on when would be coming back here again as I’m expected to finish my writing there even though my supervisor was saying to send me there for 6 months.

Hopefully would get to blog more there…

Blessed New Year to all! May this year be a year of miracles for each of you no matter what’s happening out there. May you enjoy it since the beginning ’til the end of it…

Here we come to the end of 2009.

One word that came into my mind – ‘WOW!!!’.

Time flies…

Thank God for 2009 which is filled with a lot of surprises and extraordinary experiences. It has really enriched and waken me up in certain areas of my life. Seeing things from another dimension.

I would never forget many things I been through this year…

As I stand at the very end of 2009 and looking forward to 2010, I’m looking for a greater year ahead.

May it be a year full of prayer, leading and growth in God.

May it be a more family-oriented year and at the meanwhile building a deeper relationship with old pals.

And may it be a year where I know in and out of my research.

Cheers, people!

Psalm 92:12-15

The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree,

He shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon.

Those who are planted in the house of the Lord

Shall flourish in the courts of our God.

They shall still bear fruit in old age;

They shall be flesh and flourishing,

To declare the Lord is upright;

He is my rock, and there is no unrighteousness in Him.

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This are the bible verses that keep on ringing in my mind recently after I got back from the international prophetic conference in Penang last week.

In the bible, God describe His people as palm tree.

And in the conference, one of the speakers shared the uniqueness of palm tree with us and I really think that God is awesome.

The uniqueness of palm tree:

1. Palm tree is always straight -> we shall always be righteous before God.

2. Palm tree is always rough -> God did not call us into His house just for blessing alone, but to share His suffering as well.

3. The fruit of the palm tree is always sweet -> just simply pick up one and it would always be sweet.

4. The hot water at its base would bring its fruits down -> a life without test and trials is hard to bear much fruits.

5. When the tree is 60 feet tall, its root is 60 feet under the ground, too -> to grow upward, a man would need to make sure it’s foundation is strong, too esp in the presence and the word of God.

6. If there is no leaves, there would not be any fruits -> leaves is a symbol of praise & worship. A life without praise & worship to God would never bear fruits.

7. When the life of a palm tree fades away, every of its part can be utilized -> God has never created any part in us for no purpose. Even when we had died, our life should still bring praises to Him and blessings to others.

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Coming to the end of 2009, there is indeed a lot of things to thank God for…

Not an extremely tough year I would say even though I went through many different things which I had never gone through in my life or situations I would never expect to be in.

But it is indeed a year I have clearly seen HIS FAITHFULNESS.

God who is always in every seasons of my life.

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My mum and one of her aunts who was a very superstitious came and know the Lord. I believe there is more converts to come in my family. And somehow, the Lord had put much burden in me to pray for their salvation this year other than binding us closer together as a family. I thank God for putting so many testimonies and witnesses surrounding my family not forgetting my other christian relatives who had been praying hard and trying to share gospel too. Thank God for His covering and protection over my family throughout this year, too.

There is quite a numbers of ups and downs in my life this year. People walk in and walk out, too. I thank God for bringing so many friends surrounding me this year and the lessons I have learnt through friendship. Special thanks to those who have stood side by side with me throughout these seasons and those who really really came in on time. Many precious friendship was earned throughout these period.

I think this is a year where I experience God in many ways. A year I get to know him better and a year I know myself better. It helps me to realise there is much to ask from him still and how empty I am actually. There is still much more rooms to be filled. Last year was a year I faced a lot of challenges outwardly or physically. But this is a year I face many testings and trials in my emotion, mind and will part. It is a year where I woke up many time in the middle of the nights, too. Things like this has never been this intense.  And I also went through some experiences when I share with others, no one can identify nor give me an answer. There is puzzles in my heart still and hopefully would get to figure it out in time to come. Looking forward for a year of knowing Him better and walking with Him closer. Let my faith rooted stronger inHim and at the same time seeing and experiencing more miracles.

This year was a year I sowed a lot of financial seeds, too. And as a result of that, I received many financial blessings and gifts from different one here and there, too. It’s indeed a joy to bless others, to be blessed and see people being blessed, too. And in this situation, I really experience what God says He is the supplier of seeds. We receive the seeds from Him, sow it and reap it.

Went to many places this year, too. Kuching, Singapore, Kampar, Teluk Intan, JB, Kuantan and Penang. Thank God for all these and people who joined me in these trips. Wishing to travel more in time to come.

If everything go smooth, I would be in JB for lab attachment soon, most probably mid Jan. Wishing to learn many things there and staying close with the call and purpose God put in my life. Would focus much on research next year as I have not been discipline enough this year. Would seek God and make some critical things in life right before God, too other than living a balanced life.

Til here then, may this year ends with much thanksgiving from my heart and with an expected heart which rest on his promise in Jeremiah 29: 11 “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peae and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

Cheers!!!

It was a great time there.

Not only get to visit the family and being blessed by them, but got to visit her church as well, jz tht was not able to meet up wiht Aunty Rachel… Next round then…

With Ivy... Tea+ing after 1st round of retail therapy...

checking email with Ivy's laptop...

Took in fitting room during 2nd round of retail therapy..

hmm...

Yeah.. Ready for Christmas!!! Spend it in Singapore this year can??? Who wana follow???

Yeah! Wonderful trip!!!

Thanks to Ivy for the trip…

Thank u jiji, aunty, uncles!!!

Next trip i bring my mum along ya…

Hehe.

But either in my secondary/late primary school time, I started to have one…

Today when I was browsing through some of my photo, I realised that the position of it is not consistent… What’s happening???

Took this photo bout one year ago... The mole is on the right side...

Took this few months ago, then the mole seem to be on the right side still, but it seem like geting blur... Might cause by the camera though

Took this during Raya period and obviously the mole is on the left...

Took this somewhere near Hari Kebangsaan... Obviously it is on the left...

What’s happening???

Got my car serviced and its wiper changed!

In this raining season, only one can understand the importance of the wiper!

Indeed, many men including me are not proned to give thanks easily…

Hahahhaaa..

Celebrated Sal’s bday with my Uni kaki..

It was a great gathering…

Food was not bad, tv program was nice and the best thing is got aunt sms and was invited for Lifeline Ministry partners meeting…

Got to send out a few emails which I have been delaying as well…

Got a kind of reliefing feeling…

Thumbs up…

Went to Kampar for  Hope Kampar 2nd anniversary on Friday night.

It was an awesometrip with awesome people, food, and places…

It is really a happy moment to meet up with old pals as well…

Updating, comforting and encouraging one another…

Get to see padi field when we went to Teluk Intan.

Wow… It’s really really nice. And that makes me very excited for my Penang trip next month.

PeiPei, please bring me to one… I wanna leave my footstep on it!!!

Thanks Joshua for the chicken bread as well… It really brightened up our night…

If you get to see how we eat the 2 of them in R&R, you would be very comforted.

HAhahahaa…

Had a great lunch with aunt in Sun afternoon.

And was well ministered when I was in the Lifeline partner meeting.

Don’t really understand the word given fully, but God’s faithfulness has never failed just as His love for me has never ceased.

In time like this, He sent something which was so familiar and close to my heart…

I really like that kind of atmosphere and anointing…

something I miss for quite a long time…

Thank you, Lord!

And I do believe in MIRACLES!!!

PAdi field... Look at the sky.. Nice, isn't it. Thanks Zhong He for taking this pic while I was driving...

Took while driving... The sky is indeed beautiful!!!